Most people who knows me knows that I’m a very private person. It takes quite a lot for me to open up to people, to share, and be vulnerable. I just don’t like sharing about myself or talking about myself. Never have and … Continue reading Opening up.
I’ve been dealing with depression and anxiety for about 2 years now, which most of my friends know. However what most do not know is that 1 year ago, I was also diagnosed with disordered eating // an Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified (EDNOS) that was a result of my depression. On top of all that, as of 5 months ago, I was diagnosed with an autoimmune disorder of my thyroid called Graves Disease. I’m still new to my overactive thyroid, however I’ve had the symptoms for a few months now. It’s tough dealing with both a physical illness and a … Continue reading Autoimmune disease and mental illness.
I’ve been wanting to write this for awhile now but never felt comfortable or ready to. It was only up until this week that I’m able to write this and I’m finally ready to speak up and just be open … Continue reading Christian with depression.
Plans. Goals. Dreams. All something very common to us and something that society seems to wants us to figure out by the time we finish studying/during our studies. And honestly I have them but they’re not concrete and I don’t have it all sorted yet. So when came I back to Melbourne for my 2 weeks break before my 3rd and final year starts, I honestly did not expect to get question about what I will do after, what my plans are, whether I’ll stay in Sydney or move back. But oh I was so wrong since everyone I saw … Continue reading It’s okay to not know.
I don’t know about you but I have trouble practising self-care. Lately since the low of depression has made it’s way back into my life, I’ve been afraid of taking days off because I wasn’t feeling good. I was afraid that if I took a day off and did things to make me feel better, that I would lose the motivation to do anything the next few days and make the depression worse than before. But I finally took a day off and just rested and it has been really good. After pushing myself hard for 2 weeks with not … Continue reading The fine line.
Dear Jesus, I feel like I can’t do this anymore. I’m running out of strength to continue this fight. I’m tired of this up and down phases. I hate that I can have some good days and everything is going … Continue reading A letter to Jesus in the midst of chaos.
(image is from google) It’s so frustrating to be in a valley phase of this recovery journey again. It came so unexpected with no warnings or reasoning. It started off with one day of numb and bleak feelings, which I thought it’ll go away, because it’s normal to have bad days. However it continued, from one day it became a week of just flatness. No matter what I did, it was just there. I don’t know what brought it on or why I’m in it again, but it’s frustrating as hell to be in this position again. I hate it … Continue reading The rollercoaster ride of recovery.
When it comes to decision making and just life in general, sometimes it’s really hard to obey God and trust that He knows best. You know what you need to do and you know what God has said but it’s like everything in you just doesn’t want to do it. In the moment, you think you know better or you just want to take the easier way because the other way takes too much effort and you don’t think you’re disobeying God, but you really are. It’s tough and I’ve been in that situation. Sometimes, it’s not easy to choose … Continue reading Obedience.
Over the last year, on my journey of getting to know God as my Father, I decided to do some studying on His Father’s love and I have found 3 points that I would like to share with you guys, … Continue reading Because God is your Father.