Raw moment // God the Father. It might because we were asked in class on Thursday who the Father means to us or maybe cause I’ve been sick and my mind is a little foggy. But today while I was reading the prodigal son I was reminded of an image I had 2 nights ago while I was trying to fall asleep that encouraged me and I hope it does the same for you and reminds you of how good God is. The image was of the Father and me. It started of with me in His arms and then … Continue reading Raw Moments.
Raw moment // This past semester because of a certain subject I was reminded of some memories of my last year that I’ve tried to hide. I could not figure out why talking about depression and suicidal thoughts affected me so much. And it was only during this break that I realised the reason. When my friend found out I was taking medications for depression, I had the sudden urge to gloss over it, to hide it and make it sound like it was nothing. And it was then when I had an inkling maybe it was shame that I … Continue reading Raw moments.
Dear Jesus, I feel like I can’t do this anymore. I’m running out of strength to continue this fight. I’m tired of this up and down phases. I hate that I can have some good days and everything is going … Continue reading A letter to Jesus in the midst of chaos.
Raw moment // Today in chapel, I had a picture of a little girl walking with Jesus, just staring at Him in awe. Then it goes to a young girl walking on water with Jesus. She was afraid but still holding on to Jesus and Jesus was comforting her and holding her hand. Then it goes to a young lady, walking with Jesus, in a garden just chatting with Him, enjoying being in His presence. This image brought me so much comfort. And it was just like Jesus was saying to me: “Keep your eyes on Me. Take one step … Continue reading Raw Moments.
Raw moment // Today I walked into chapel with a lot of my mind, my health, my future plans but mostly trying to figure out who would be there to help host and where to place them and how hosting would worked today just because it was a different layout etc. I was definitely in my task mode, which usually happens when I’m leading and serving, and when worship started, I was still in my task mode just because that’s how hosting works. Anyway half way through the 2nd song, the Holy Spirit just stopped me in my track and … Continue reading Raw moments.
When it comes to decision making and just life in general, sometimes it’s really hard to obey God and trust that He knows best. You know what you need to do and you know what God has said but it’s like everything in you just doesn’t want to do it. In the moment, you think you know better or you just want to take the easier way because the other way takes too much effort and you don’t think you’re disobeying God, but you really are. It’s tough and I’ve been in that situation. Sometimes, it’s not easy to choose … Continue reading Obedience.
I watched Finding Nemo for the first time last year. I know it’s not a new movie and it only took me 13 years after it was released to watch it, but hey at least I’ve seen it now. It is now one of my favourite movie because it reminds me of God Father’s love. Anyway here is a recap of the movie: The movie starts off with Marlin, his wife and all his baby eggs in their home enjoying their family time when suddenly a bigger fish attacks them. Marlin was knocked unconscious and when he woke up he realises that … Continue reading Finding Nemo, my take.
Raw moment // This morning I woke up at 3am to a panic attack due to the dream I had. It was of me in a room with 3 of my good friends and they kept bringing dogs into the room even though they knew I was very scared of them. They also started chasing me with the dogs and for some reason I just could not get away. I started crying and that was when I woke up and was panicking a lot. I felt a lot of fear in me and in that moment because the dream was … Continue reading Raw moments.
I’ve been staying over at a friend’s place since mid december and recently she painted a canvas and wrote ‘a beautiful mess’ on it. Each day that’s the first thing I read when I wake up and one of the … Continue reading A beautiful mess.