In this 2 year journey of dealing with depression and anxiety, I have had to learn to distance myself from some relationships in my life just because it wasn’t benefiting me or my health. I struggled so much with this because personally when I let someone in my life, they’re in for good. I value loyalty and once I’m close to someone, I tend to overlook a lot of things because I treasure who they are and their friendship. So when it came to my struggles with my mental health, I was shocked when I couldn’t count on some of … Continue reading Things to remember when you feel guilty for ending friendships.
Lately I’ve lost myself and I’ve come to a point where I just don’t like myself. This round of high anxiety and depression is something different. I feel like I’ve lost the fight, the hope, the care and the strength in this battle. I still have not figure out what caused it or a way out of it yet and I’m just riding this wave out, hoping it’ll be over soon. But one thing I’ve been constantly reminded in all of this, is who I am in Christ and God’s love for me. Knowing this, believing it and declaring it over … Continue reading A simple truth.
The last few weeks have been hard for me. With having an underactive thyroid on top of dealing with low depression and anxiety, I was at a lost of trying to deal and cope with everything by myself. Because of who I am and what I value, missing classes and not being able to do my best in my assessments is a huge frustration of mine and something I’m not okay with and causes my self-thoughts to be very unhealthy. As such, I would continue to make myself go to classes and finish all my assessments by the due date, … Continue reading Self Reminders.
The last few weeks I’ve been consumed with doing assessments, one in particular which was my contemporary theology subject. I spent two weeks on it and I’m still going on this assessment, trying to understand all the different concepts and I still don’t get it. Over this past week, I’m just reminded that though theology is important, it is not dogma for my faith. Though all these perspectives on understanding the Word is important, what truly matters is God’s love. Love is why I have a relationship with God. Love is why Jesus died on the Cross. Love is what … Continue reading Love – all that matters.
God is continually speaking to us, it’s just whether we are looking out for Him and listening for His voice. Honestly, I haven’t been good with this at all. With the busyness of life and just constantly being switched on with technology, I definitely have not being keeping an ear out for what He’s trying to speak to me about. It’s something that I know I need to get better at and be more intentional with, by learning to take things slower, creating space for Him to speak to me and just being more attentive to His voice in whatever … Continue reading He is whispering.
(image is from the live stream on Bethel’s youtube) On Friday I was diagnosed with an underactive thyroid which explains why I’ve been feeling so tired and having constant aches in my body the last few days. At the moment, we’re just waiting for a month to see what happens, as I went from having an overactive thyroid (Graves disease to be exact) to an underactive thyroid, so we’re just hoping that now that I’m off medication, my thyroid function will go back to normal. Anyway when I found out I was a little deflated just because this is yet … Continue reading The power of worship.
1 John 3:1 // I’m learning to understand His love for me more so that I can love myself better. He loves me in a way that’s different to how He loves His other children, just because I’m me. I’m not the same as the next person and He’s made me with all my little imperfects and quirkiness so the way He loves me will be different. It doesn’t mean He loves me any less or more than the other person, it just means He loves me uniquely. So it got me thinking, if He accepts me for who I … Continue reading
This is a hard post to write. This topic is something really close to my heart but it’s also something that needs to be talked about. You see today is 10th September which means it is World Suicide Prevention Day. According to statistics and research, “The World Health Organization estimates that over 800,000 people die by suicide each year – that’s one person every 40 seconds. & In Australia more than 2500 people die each year with latest figures (2015) telling us that 3,027 Australians took their own life.” That is a scary huge number of lives lost each year and a number … Continue reading World Suicide Prevention Day.
What does it mean to be kind to yourself? Why does some find it easier to do so than others? Is it something that’s related to our upbringing? Honestly, I don’t know any of the answer to those questions, but I do know that it is something that is never to late to have. I don’t think it is something that’s we are necessary able to be taught on but I do think it’s something everyone has to go on a journey to discover and learn for themselves. Being kind to yourself looks different to everyone, and no two person … Continue reading Be kind to yourself.